Ramblings of a Midwest Woman

Time in this first trimester seems to go by so slowly. It inches along, and all I want it to do is speed up because I can't help but feel worried. I wasn't worried or scared until my doctor told me I didn't need to take my metformin any longer.  But I've heard it helps prevent miscarriage? Doesn't it also help prevent gestational diabetes?  So, now I don't know what to do, and I'd really like to talk to a doctor to comfort my serious fears. It's taken three years for us to get pregnant this ONE time, and I am terrified I will lose it because of high blood sugar, stress, low progesterone, PCOS, or any of the other things that aren't quite right with my body. This is my miracle, and I need it to stay with me. I want this baby.  I hate that I feel so nervous, but we haven't had it as easy as many of the couples I know who just seem to breeze through conception and pregnancy. I know people who have struggled, but I acknowledge that, but I ...

I am so stupidly happy! I am 5 weeks pregnant, and my HCG levels are increasing like they should, which is exciting. Any sign that things are going right makes me feel overjoyed. I set up my ultrasound today for April 12 at 1:15 down at Rochester Mayo Clinic. I hope by then everything is still going well. I'm trying to do everything as right as possible (except I had a smoothie this morning that had more sugar than I thought in it. No more of those for me !). My appointment with the psychiatric nurse went well today. Amy got goosebumps when I told her I was pregnant, and she will see me again in two months since I'm doing so well. She said as my pregnancy progresses I may need to up my dose of Zoloft to compensate for the extra blood flow in my body. It feels great to have all these doctors on my team, and I hope together we can bring a beautiful, little one into this world that looks like Brett and I. They also took my blood pressure today, and it was great! 113 over 80 wh...

As I've previously written about on here, Brett and I have been trying to conceive a baby for almost three years. This has included many doctors appointments, blood tests, ultrasounds, shots, pills, surgeries, and super fun diets that I tried. I felt like I tried everything, and yet nothing worked. Each month I would message my doctors to tell them that it was cycle day 1, and they would tell me to take a pregnancy test just in case. I never did because when my cycle starts, it's clear I'm not pregnant. But today, I am! Three days ago on Saturday morning, I took a pregnancy test. It was 6:30 in the morning, and I woke up to use the restroom, still groggy and half-asleep, but I knew if I was going to take a test that day, it needed to be first thing in the morning. I took a test the Tuesday prior, but it was negative, and I had pretty much given up hope that we had conceived this cycle. But still, I felt different. This whole month had been different. First of all, I a...